It was about this time one year ago in a big April snowstorm while I was snowed in up in the mountains that the hospital decided to release Tricia to a nursing home following the surgery on her spine to remove the cancer in hopes that she would be able to retain the use of … Continue reading Spring Snow
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Bald Mountain
The trail to Bald Mountain is only a few blocks from my house, a five or six mile round trip journey to the highest point in the local vicinity. I used to like to climb up there at least once a week to see all the birds and enjoy the tranquility up there. From there … Continue reading Bald Mountain
Memories
Haunted by memories, that's what I'm noticing these days. At first I didn't notice it too much because I was already feeling bad anyway and I was busy with my nose to the grindstone moving out of the old place and into the new. Now the pressure for the move is off and I am … Continue reading Memories
Thirty Days
Thirty days has passed since Tricia went home to Jesus and the knife edge of the pain has dulled a bit. Four weeks has been enough to organize my new place and develop some semblance of a new routine. My cats too seem to have settled in, found their favorite window perches and have started … Continue reading Thirty Days
The Lonliest Job
We have been on many an adventure over the last 25 years together. Sometimes we won and sometimes we lost. I can remember several times in the last few years when our business wasn't working out in the location that we found ourselves in and we had to scramble to get out. It isn't easy … Continue reading The Lonliest Job
Dust in the Wind
Five days to go before I have to be out of this place and the donation truck is coming today to lighten my load. Over the last couple of weeks as I have been packing, donating and preparing to move out, I am intrigued by the perceived value of things. When we were younger we … Continue reading Dust in the Wind
Layers of Stress
`At first, upon Tricia's death I was even more stressed out than I was before. But as time passes I can feel myself unwinding, as if it is one layer at a time. For so long I have been in a race against time, running one errand at a time and coming right home to … Continue reading Layers of Stress
Scrambled Brains
Woke up early this morning with my mind running hard. For some reason I was thinking it was the 17th already and that I had missed making mention of the training kickoff of the Patriots' Festival bike race, which is the 16th. Then I felt the gut wrenching fear that I had forgotten to do … Continue reading Scrambled Brains
Time
Time is a funny thing. It is supposed to be a constant force, marching on without regard to its effect on us mortals. Though it may be a relentless enemy, when we are hurting time can be our friend. Time heals it is said. Father Time's advance is supposed to be steady, but there are … Continue reading Time
The Gift
As I have been going about the business of moving on I have also been stopping in at all the places Tricia liked to make sure everyone has been informed of the sad news. In doing so I have been continually astonished at the effect her life, her suffering and her passing have had on … Continue reading The Gift
