Today I feel like Tom Hanks in the movie Cast Away at the crossroads near the end of the movie when he was starting over with nothing and could take any direction he chose. Yesterday a quarter century ended with the passing of my beautiful wife Tricia. It was nearly a year ago that the cancer had invaded her spine and robbed her of the strength in her legs, resulting in a surgery in March, actually on my birthday in 2014. They wanted to put her in a nursing home, but I told them I would take care of her. So that is what I have been doing, twenty four hours a day seven days a week for a year. Fortunately we found a program that allowed me to work for a medical company and receive a little pay for the work. So today finds me out of work looking around at a quarter century of the remnants of our life together.
What to keep, what to let go of. I must find a way to fit everything I need or want into a twenty one foot camper trailer. I wish I could just take a few weeks off to rest and wrap my brain around the enormity of what has happened but I have only three weeks to do it in so I will have to get started immediately.
It appears the cat has barfed up a hairball on the carpet. I guess that will be as good a place as any to start.
Steve – I’m so very sorry to hear about your loss. I’m sure your head is spinning and have a range of ambivalent emotions. I will regularly pray for peace, comfort, rest and direction – that HE would be your strength to carry you through this. He never leaves us nor forsakes us, even when we don’t feel Him. My heart aches for you.